It’s been a long couple weeks full of light bulb moments.
I realized yesterday that I’m just like Jesus’ disciples, specifically in one of their not-so-bright moments. I realized that God can use me to touch people’s lives, no matter how faltering my words may sound or how small I feel. I realized that there really is no point in worrying, because anxiety is not going to solve anything. (It’ll just make me feel worse and more overwhelmed) I realized anew that holding onto hurts and insecurities is not going to lead to healing and restoring relationships — forgiveness is the much better way. And I came to the familiar realization that looking for joy moments really does brighten up your perspective and leads to a grateful life. (Yes, I have been down that path before)
Most of these realizations I knew in my head. But sometimes you’ve just gotta learn them again. Often the long hard way, it seems. But that’s okay.
Maybe that’s what it takes for some of these lessons to stick.
Seems I forget easily, or maybe it’s just that I need to see things in a different light or with a slightly different twist?
Good thing we’re not required to reach ultimate perfection before we can get into heaven. 😉 If we always had it all figured out all of the time (are you with me?), there would be no need for grace. Or redemption. Or a deeper relationship with Jesus. I’m not at all undermining Jesus’ words when He said, “Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect.” (Matthew 5:48) Modeling our lives after our Father is what it’s all about. The beautiful part is that it’s not about performance. It’s about being molded and seeking and learning and becoming more and more like Him.
Goodness is the fruit of the Spirit that I studied and taught about on Sunday morning. As I talked to the young ladies in my Intermediate class, it was going straight into my own heart. Funny how that seems to happen! 😀 We talked about how we can never be “good enough” for God, “good enough” to get into heaven, or “good enough” to earn our own righteousness. However, there is an aspect of goodness we should have — wholesome, moral excellence and virtue. The kind of goodness that will flow out of us once the Spirit is within us. If the Spirit is in us and we are tuned in, we won’t have to drum up goodness or strive to build it up — God will put it inside of us.
I knew that. But it was good to be reminded anew.
I had a divine run-in with a lady acquaintance in town today. Really, only God could have arranged for her to be walking down the street and come to the EXACT spot across the road from me at the EXACT minute I climbed out of my car to meet a friend for lunch. She makes me sad — every time I talk to her she’s so down and struggling to find hope. I don’t think I’ve ever seen her smile. We had a rather lengthy conversation which consisted of topics such as how to deal with worrying, happiness and whether people can be happy all the time, how to live when it doesn’t seem like life isn’t very sunny, and so on — it was a rather startling stark combination of Eeyore and Pollyanna standing there on the sidewalk conversing. That sounds like an exaggerated contrast, but it really wasn’t. (Erm. I can’t believe I just compared myself to Pollyanna. Disclaimer: a subdued not-as-obnoxiously-optimistic version ;))
I pray that she would be able to see the sunlight and rest in the peace of Jesus. That she would not focus on her circumstances and worries, but that she would see the good in everyday and look for the things she does have to be thankful for. And that God could use my small words and use them for much greater things than myself!
My own words to her were words I myself needed to hear. I think that’s why God arranged our meeting today. He’s like that quite often!
As for the not-so-bright disciple revelation — I’ve decided I have no right to criticize Jesus’ disciples. After reading the two stories in Matthew of how Jesus first fed the 5,000 and then a few chapters later fed the 4,000, I started thinking about the disciple’s response in the second story. When Jesus presented them the problem of the multitudes being hungry and without food, they responded by saying, “Where are we to get enough bread in such a desolate place to feed so great a crowd?” My first reaction was, HELLO! This is the exact same scenario that had happened not that long before — how could you all have already forgotten the miracle Jesus did last time when He fed the 5,000?!?!”
Then I suddenly realized that I do that too. I forget what Jesus has already done (in the not-so-distant past) and I come to Him worrying and wondering where in the world He’s going to get food.
If I’m suddenly glowing, blame the lightbulb moments. 😉 And none of them are of my own doing — praise the Lord for His revelations. Now, I want to hear your recent realizations and/or lightbulb moments. Comment away! 😀