Time to dust off the blog and exercise the proverbial writing fingers.
I’ve been rather distracted lately, in case you haven’t noticed. 😉 Blogs are great and fine and all that, but real life is just way better. 😀
I’m enjoying the sweaty little body topped with blonde curls cuddled up beside me — we’re watching Peter Rabbit and laughing at the Mr. McGregor “One two three four five six fat little rabbits!!!” part. There’s swinging with Tyra on Wednesdays while she begs me for underducks and I listen to her six-year-old world. (A seven-year-old boy is in love with her — imagine that :p) And weekends with birthday surprises and tennis lessons and strolls in adorable Pennsylvania towns and lazy random Sunday afternoon conversations… ah, you can’t beat that.
In other words, I’m enjoying real life. Immensely.
Oh… and to DIE FOR Tomato Pie is definitely better live and in person. *mouth waters* It sounds strange but it’s seriously AH-MAZING stuff. I am officially on a quest to discover what exactly the cafe puts in it to make it so good… SO YUMMY!
I’ve been thinking a lot about the how-to’s of living in surrender and God’s will and how to fully embrace whatever “now” that I find myself in. (It seems to be a repeating theme in my life somehow)
It’s so easy to say I surrender, and then not actually give up. Is it because it takes trust and a complete letting go of what I want, when we tell God we’re okay with whatever He has for us? It can feel scary. And hurt our pride. Maybe that’s why we resist it so much.
And then you have the moments and situations and circumstances that feel unknown and out of the comfort zone and terrifying… and then who wants to tell God, “I’m okay with whatever You want me to do and wherever You take me”? What if He takes me seriously?!?! (He usually does) What if I look stupid or say the wrong thing or mess it all up? At the same time, I can testify that letting go and letting God take control is the most freeing thing ever. It opens up huge opportunities to see God work in ways that would never have been witnessed otherwise!
Cars that don’t start can turn into deep spiritual generational issues being addressed. (Or in another case, hospitality experienced first hand) I guess I’ve just gotta stop worrying whenever my car won’t start, because it’s always at a time when God seems to want to do something specifically. Or when I want the easy way out in one situation and feel slightly intimidated by another — then God works it out that I am able to connect really well with the two girls — all in one week. Talk about feeling super blessed and having my little “I’m-not-sure-about-this-uneasies” blown away! Why do I still worry and fret, when God has everything so perfectly under control?
You tell me.
Then there’s the unending quest for God’s will. It often seems to be this mysterious unknown that eludes the searching soul. Personally, sometimes I think we over-spiritualize the finding of God’s will. I have to think of the phrase Jesus said in the Garden: “Not my will but Thine be done.” If we are truly seeking after God, walking in His Spirit, and searching for truth, He will make it clear. Maybe we don’t know exactly how our life will play out yet, or what it will look like, or why God puts us in such strange situations sometimes — but rest assured, if you are following Him, He will keep you and guide you.
Oh dear, now I sound like this high up person who has God’s will all figured out. I don’t. 😉 So glad HE has our lives in His hands! 😀